Ah... Been a while eh,...

I can't seem to find time/ I can't seem to organize my time well for things I like to do... Like, you know, watching anime or reading manga, preparing and making lolita dresses or costumes for cosplays, or going to the arcade to play games (as well as to spend money).

There's so many things going on... Projects, tests, exams... Let's just hope I can at least, well, pass. Because I can't exactly understand what the teacher is saying right now. Haha.

Oh yeah, thanks for clicking on the adverts if you did! Another cheque's gonna come soon. Yay. My blog has been pretty dead for the past few months. The interest and passion for blogging suddenly died then. I'm now no longer a regular blogger. Well, I used to blog everyday, but now I only blog when I have something to say, or show or something like that.

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My hair:
Is currently very damaged and frizzy. Because I straightened it, curled it, and dyed it a lot, a lot of times for the previous 2-3 years. And I've finally thought of what I can do with it!! Finally.

It's either I straighten it, (because I wanna try something new. Well, the last time I straightened it was like... 5 years back.) or I go do treatment for it (which is my current wavy hair). I can't exactly decide.

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Ah... It's gonna be a wordy post, cause I'm quite. Bored now.

I've been pretty emo recently, over anything. And when I'm bored, I tend to think a lot. I admire, envy and always wondered, how do couples last? Especially till they grow old. It's so sweet to see them so loving. But through a relationship, there are so many things you have to go through. Sometimes it's kind of tough. Especially when a couple quarrels (or have different opinions). Sometimes we just want things our way, or sometimes, we tend to overlook things.

I kinda think, well. In my relationship, I'm so, so different from my boyfriend. In many ways, that is... Sometimes I think we're too different ; that we aren't meant to be together ; or perhaps I'm not good enough for him. What do I know? Barely nothing. What can I do? Barely anything. Am I good at anything? None. Talents? Nope. It feels well.. I don't know how to say it, but when you feel that you're not good enough for the person, you have this thought that, they can always find someone else better, who's good enough for them.

But then again, I believe that he doesn't look down on me or anything like that. Well, something in our relationship seems to keep us together... Besides the feelings we have for each other, I kind of think it's the communication that kept us so close. For the past... Uh. 8 months, we've been talking every day. And I'd only let a guy get close to me if we're that close. (Talks everyday and such). But now well, the communication is only 5-10 minutes per day through the phone call, and I don't get to see him till the weekends. So... It's so difficult. Like as though he's there, but at the same time, he's not.

You know, I kind of wonder, if anyone were to say, "I'd never let you go" and it was a promise they made, does this mean that, even if their feelings were to fade off completely, they'd not let the relationship go? Then, what's the point of being together... Or is a relationship more than just feelings?

In a relationship, can you still feel what's love after being together for a long time? Or would you be so used to it, you can't feel it anymore? Or would you stay in a relationship because you're married- or you have the responsibility, or would you just stay in one because you need someone there. What keeps someone together in a relationship? What keeps you together with someone?

-Sigh. I should stop thinking.

Time to do my project.

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It's been a long time since I dolled myself up !